This poem is dedicated
To my dear and beloved soul sister Cait,
as a proof the brightest lights of the sheerest joys
can only shine so bright in the dark.
With my sincere hopes that one day,
Your sweet daughter Marnie,
will then be able to read this testament,
of her Mother’s love and strenght.
Yours Truly,
Barbara Ferreres
Of Beginnings;
a poem about new births and new beginnings,
New Years babies, and labour while the world is busy partying
an eulogy to what was before a Mother,
and a celebration of the many deaths women go through in life.
« And now let’s welcome the New Year,
Full of things that never have been »
— As I paint the night with my screams
Fireworks join me in this peticular choir,
Red flashes illuminating my face —
They’re highlighting the pain
That comes when things end.
I am disintegrating in the Time between
Everything going on, beginning, ending,
Between the Death of Me and the new Life I’m creating,
— I am one with the World.
Fire starts cracking, my head is bursting;
Oh, I am nothing, but a Scream!
As the bouquet final starts,
The nurses’ choregraphy joins this chaotic orchestra,
Then! As the night sky begins to recover
From this aggressive celebration…
The Silence
is illuminated
by a cry —
for Life!
To my younger self publishing
A few years back, innocently,
« New Year, New Me! »
I’m glad you enjoyed it while it lasted,
For this year, I start it off as a rebirth,
In the form of a Mother!
Oh! The still Winter Nights
Shall never remain Silent again.
Text :
« Of Beginnings »
Barbara Ferreres,
January 2024,
Prompted by a tweet made by Cait on her daughter’s Marnie birth.
Photograph :
« La petite fille du train Montpellier – Perpignan »
or
« Small Little Girl sitting in the train from Montpellier to Perpignan »
Photographie prise aux environs d’Agde dans le train TGV SNCF INOUI entre Nîmes Centre et Perpignan
Photograph taken by Agde, Hérault (34), Languedoc-Roussillon, Occitanie, France.
Barbara Ferreres,
December 2023 – Décembre 2023
Fujifilm xs10, lens fujinon 15-35mm
Barbara Ferreres, all rights reserved 2023-2025
